So it is no surprise my struggle with raising support but this past month has completely baffled me. I have been recieving significantly big anonymous donations and random checks handed to me. I am excited to see God miracoulsly come through at the end of December with all of my support, but here is the funny thing I have enough to last me till the end of January.
All along I was thinking God will stretch my trust and faith till the end of December with my support, but he has bigger plans for me and I have to trust him always. I get it now, its not a matter of extending my faith to the end of the month but extending it till eternity. What if I was given all my support the moment I came here?
I aks myself would I be so DESPERATELY IN LOVE with God if he gave me everything I ever wanted in one moment. I dont want to measure my love for him based on his blessings to me. I just want to love and serve him so recklessly that if my life consists of living in a small shack in the middle of the desert I will praise him, or if my life consists of living in a beautiful country home I will praise home.
There is a song in my head whose lyrics say:
I am in Love with you and there is no cost.
I am in Love with you and there is no loss.
I am in Love with you, I wanna take your name.
I am in Love with you, I wanna cling to you.
Song of Solomon 4:9-“You have ravished my heart with one glance of your eye”
