This past week ComLife had the chance to take a trip to Kensington Philadelphia. While in Philly I was able to attend an AA meeting. If you never attended an open AA meeting, basically we sat there while they went over one of the 12 steps and some people shared then after we had the chance to just talk to those who lingered after the meeting. AA meetings are essentially like church if everyone where completly honest. While I was there they spoke about step six: “CHARACTER DEFECT” (basically a less religous way of saying SIN).
What struck me as beautiful and accepting was that the only requirement to attend an AA meeting is if you have the desire to stop your alcohlic dependency. Whether you have been sober a year or an hour you are welcomed with open arms and with true AA nature a Hi my name is ______ Hello______Thanks for sharing!
Step six lead me to think of my “Character Defects”….In AA meeting honesty here is a list of only a few of my “Character Defects” (brace yourself for if you are not prepared to see me in all my weakness and my struggle while understanding that I too am a work in progress, then please STOP reading now)
LUST
From the loss of my purity at age 14 to now I have struggled with keeping my body a temple of the Lords and keeping my mind free from immoral thoughts. I could passionatly rant about how Satan stole my innocence and purity and how as a daughter of the most high I want it back for it rightfully belongs to me. BUT because I chose my lustful desires over Christ he had a wide open door. Even now at 22 years old I struggle to maintain a Christlike relationship which bares righteous fruit. BUT I will not give up because Christ did not carry his cross and then say Lord I changed my mind I will not be sacrificed. So I say I will be sacrificed…DAILY!
Selfishness
I never knew how self focused I was until I was put in a house with 11 people. All I can talk about is my issues and my struggles. While I speak of me my brothers and sisters drown before my eyes. I would listen to people in order to simply wait my turn so I can talk about me. I am a “Me Monster” (click here to see what I mean). It is a daily practice for me to stop and truly listen and instead of thinking of what I will say next about me I think of questions to ask about the other person. This leads me to notice that I recieve love and my heart is ministered to not by what I say of me but by seeking to love others when it’s only about them.
Anger
I don’t quite know when Satan sneaked in through this doorway but it affected my ComLife family and my relationship. It has become that no longer can I recieve constructive criticsm without snapping back with a crazy hispanic chick attitude. This happens regularly when I just can’t seem to get things right. Whether it’s a mouth full of curse worse or a complete avoidance of the “guilty “party, it leads to me having to say sorry a lot. Just thinking about it I have lots more sorrys to say. Again a daily struggle to hold my toungue, pray, then apologize.
These are just a few of my “Character Defects” but it is when I see my weakness and the ugliness of my heart that I can see Christ strength and his beauty deep within me.
And we all say……THANKS FOR SHARING!
and we love you for it, Rosie. thanks for sharing!
Thanks for sharing! haha! I love you and think you’re wonderful. -Kels
that was beautiful rosie! 🙂 thanks for sharing!
It is great to see the evidence of what you’re saying in your life. thanks for sharing.
Hi Rosee,
I commend your courage and effort in confessing you weaknesses,
you just fulfilled James 5:16. God of peace will perfect his work upon your life, not man. He is already doing it. Cheer up. I am praying for you. Your are great!
Shallom