I began the hike up the Georgia mountains yet again, if you want to know about my first excursion read my blog TRY ME!!!. So I am sitting in the rain with the log of my burdens sitting in my lap, looking at the log realizing that everything I essentially left at the top of the mountain in October 2008, I picked back up and continued to carry it along.
So going on this hike again was something I knew I needed but of course I was weary of continually reliving the pain of my sins because it seems like lately I have been going through that over and over again. Riding this emotional rollercoaster and still attempting to hike this mountain yet again was something I would have to rely 100% on God.
Climbing the muddy, steep terrain as I slowly realized how my sin has become a distraction. Distracting me from having an intimate relationship with God, from having an intimate relationship with my ComLife family, and from truly recieving Gods blessings in love, relationships, and the healing of my soul.
I wish I could say that it happened with just as much intensity as last time but I knew what to expect on the physical aspect of it. Getting through the hike rather quickly, I get to the top laying down my burdens as my heart fills with joy and rejoicing, I think to myself I will be damned if I pick these burdens up again. I am tired of removing myself from Godly relationships because I define and seek validation in the crap of my past.
So feeling a lot less weighed down I find myself rejoicing in the Lord and most importantly ready to take on the intimacy of Christ and his ultimate love. At the end of the day I felt the physical exhaustion but my heart is ready to take on the truth of Christ’s beautiful sacrifice. But please continue to keep me in your prayers as I know that this will not be easy and this emotional rollercoaster gets higher and scarier, but it is when I am weak that I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:10
“That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
Rosie, thanks for having a good attitude and participating again. Yes, when we allow ourselves to be made weak it allows God to be the one to make us strong! I am blessed to walk this journey with you. Love you!
Hi Rosee,
No course fo alarm, it just the human nature that sometimes brings us to that realm where the perfection of God will have access to pemeate our soul for purification. Our weakness gives God’s Spirit strength to perfect us. Thank God you are up again!
Shallom in Christ