Yesterday afternoon I woke up from a nap with the most wretched pain in my neck. After I complained a bit, Amanda my lovely housemate gave me a neck massage. It felt better and I was at ease enough to sleep. But unfortunately this morning the pain was so unbearable that I could not move my neck with out getting tears in my eyes. All this pain was happening in the begining of our morning prayer/worship session.
So just like fearless women of Christ do (and our Godly man, Barton) they decided to pray over the pain in my neck. I slowly took my place on the floor where everyone could lay hands on me. As they annointed me with oil and began to pray I felt a surge of wincing pain, almost like needles pulsating up and down my neck. With hands of my ComLife family still upon me I was asked if the pain went away.
I wish I could say yes it did, YEAH GOD. But unknown to me God was using my pain to cause a breakthrough in our spirtual growth. So they continued in prayer although inside I felt the enemy pouring rebellious lies into my mind.
Kim asked “Rosie is there anything in your heart that could be triggering this physical discomfort”?
Jess says “Are you feeling any fear”?
And then the tears began to flow. I felt angry and frustrated because I believed we were failing at Gods idea of community. What’s funny is that the morning prior the wonderful men who prayed over me said they saw anger and frustration hiding away in one of the bedrooms, of course I didn’t want to admit it lurked behind my bedroom door. Before I knew it vunerabilty came spewing out like word vomit and I wasn’t the only one who felt like we were failing at fufilling the idea of the ACTS 2 church. God has bigger plans no matter how much pain and discomfort I felt. We all began to let go of things that seemed to hinder us from building a Christlike Community.
Granted there is still so much to be said and learned but I believe this is only the begining of Gods Glory through Comlife. On the plus side my neck feels great and I have never been more excited to be able to turn my neck. So for now on if I feel sick or pain in my body I will come to my ComLife family (doctors aint got nothing on the healing power of Jesus’ name) and who knows it may be a breakthrough you never saw coming.
