I have asked God for money, I have asked God for a husband, I have even asked him to heal people all the while not believing he will give it. But I never knew I could ask him for the Holy Spirit and he would give so freely. I feel I have grew so much this past week and it has showed with some awesome gifts from the Lord God Almighty.
Holy Spirit fall afresh on me, Holy Spirit fill me, God I have tasted your joy and your freedom and I want MORE. God says in his word ask and you shall recieve (Matt. 7:8), I began to overflow with the Holy Spirit. My worship changed, before I would stand there and just sing but now I can’t keep my feet from moving (Psalms 149:3). I dance, I jump, I lift my hands and my voice. My prayer has changed. Just yesterday I prayed for my sisters in my community and funny thing I don’t remember much of what I said because it wasn’t me speaking it was God speaking through me. I never believed I could cast out demons but sure enough I demand through Christ authority and they flee.
I know some of you reading this are thinking okay Rosie has lost her mind. But I am not telling you this for my sake or recognition but to tell you that God is real. He is not just some guy you pray to thinking, if I am lucky he will answer my prayer, you don’t have to be a Christian for 35 years before he bestows spiritual gifts upon you and you don’t have to travel all over the world to use those gifts. For Jesus said that it is by faith we are healed (Matt. 8:13). If you believe, God in his perfect timing will give to his beloved children.
To be honest I kind of feel like I am preaching but my experiences are a testimony to Gods glory and Jesus’ sacrifice. I feel so different and I am so happy that God has gven me the gift of compassion. Not the kind of compassion that I am the shoulder to cry on, the kind that when I look into someones eyes I see thier wounds and I feel it. I have burst into tears looking into the eyes of my sisters or even touching them I get this stab in the heart. But I embrace that I can lay my hands on my brothers and sisters in Christ and let the Holy Spirit flow from me to them.
Honestly I worry that this won’t last, that the firey passion for God inside of me will die out but I know that being apart of community life, my family in Christ will fill me. That is my prayer that we will be a community of people who pray over one another, prophesy over one another, love each other and others, and fill one one other with the Holy Spirit as God as filled us. I love this community, I love where God has placed me, and I want to give all that I am to serve his kingdom. I learned that being a Christian isn’t about getting to heaven, it is about aiding in the falling of heaven on earth. And that is what I was made for, whether I see it or not I know that I am a warrior of the Heavenly King and he created me to bring salvation and healing to the nations (including the United States) and to bring fear and turmoil to the gates of hell.
